in time...

when we are loosing things in life,things we thought we were ready to loose,we actually feel incredibly bad and can't cooperate with anything...In my life,no matter how hard it is i try my best to accomplish everything possible.And sometimes i succeed,bust sometimes i loose. And when that happens, i feel like the whole walls of a room crush over me. And they don't let me breathe. I need air. I need enough force to go on in life,enough will to start all over again. And in a few months i will do that. I will restart my life from zero. I will be part of a world where no one knows me,where i have to make something out of me,and never try a hat larger than my head. When we all decide to follow multiple tasks, at least one of them we will fail. It is maybe a law of nature.Or maybe just a thing we cannot do. I tried that many times,and in every case the Law of Alchemy applied: Whenever you gain something of important value,you also loose something of the same value. And it is true no matter if we want to see it or not. And it can also go the other way around. Bust in most cases it applies as it is... I hope i will learn form my own mistakes in time. I hope i will get that i have to concentrate on one single thing and stay focused till the very end. But in the same time do it good. With no regrets,no complaining, without any other thing to interfere. I did that. I had multiple things to do in the same time. And it happened. I had to give up on one. I had in plan to,but finally i was being forced to. What can i do?Not much! But just learn from my all mistakes...each and every one of them. They will all help me build a better Me. Why with capital M?Because me should be a project of my life. Taking care of my own knowledge, of my own projects,of my own life,and not care one bit about the rest. As i see around me,the ones who can do that,and feel no remorse are actually doing better in life than people like me who care. I wish i had that strength, to crush everything in front of me,to build my own way in life and last but not the least, never care. I don't think i want to be that ice-heart,but i wish i had more power and more will...In time i will gain those ones too!