miercuri, 5 octombrie 2011

new start


it is time to start fresh! today is that day in which i take my life in my own hands and with a lot of fear but excitement i start all over again. Every fresh start is important and it makes you feel something different. It makes you feel like you can do anything and any shade of doubtless fades away.
I will belong to me, i will be directing my own moves. And what better relationship is there, than the one with yourself?
No, i am not narcissist, nor am i self centered, but it feels damn well when you can think for yourself without any pressure.
Today is the day!

marți, 4 octombrie 2011

one of the best!

I don't know if it is because of my love for Italy or for my love for Tuscany. I don't know if it is the perfume of that region or the people who live there. All i know is that i am in love. I am in love with that beautiful place on Earth. I am sure there are better locations, but if i ever want to live my live somewhere and be in peace and quiet i know i want to be there.
recently i saw the movie "Under the Tuscan sun" and i fell in love even more. It is a must see just because it is connected so much to the Italian spirit. Sons and daughters of the Roman Gods, the Italians are warm and intelligent. I think that there is no other nation which can grow chefs since they are 4-5 years old. Everyone there knows how to cook healthy and respects nature and everything this one offers.
I fell for the subject of the movie and for the symbols i discovered watching it. Since than i re-watched parts of it for maybe 10-20 times and i must admit i can't get it out of my mind.
It made me cry many times and it made me think that until now i haven't achieve my purpose in life. I didn't succeed in more than just school and i wonder if somewhere inside me there can be something i can use to live my life.
I like a lot of things, but most of all i like to talk to people. To listen to them and try to find the best advices i have. Among my friends i feel like a shrink most of the time. Everyone comes to me to ask advices while i don't have much experience.
And i also like to write. Put down words that flow into my mind. I guess it would be ten times easier to do it in my own language, but even so, i prefer a language people can understand. Who knows how many mistakes i made in my text? Who knows if i am any good at it?
But i look around. And i see sad people. people who wanted to become something and in the end they became something else. I see people who would love to do what they like but most of them had to choose a different way.
I love to travel and write about it. I love to cook and see people smiling because my food tastes good. I love to learn about traditions and respect them as facts.
Isn't that the best? Isn't the life worth nothing if all you did was to stay behind a desk and do paper work? Isn't it a waste to always look at pictures and wish to go in places where you will never go?
Tuscany is a goal for me. It stands on my "to do" list and it will never go unless i do it. And i will because i want to see my dreams come true... Seeing is believing! Right? wink