Should i love?

It's hard to find someone to really love. And when you do, you feel something changing inside you. You don't think only about you as you did before.Your mind splits in half,and the other one takes it's part in your mind like he's the original owner.
The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.They melt and they tend to become just one.
But didn't anyone asked me if i want to love? Did anyone hated the love? Sometimes i do... Why? Cause it hurts too much. I fear too much love sometimes...To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead.Maybe i am 3 parts dead. I am a walking zombie in the living world.
There's an evolutionary imperative why we give a crap about our family and friends. And there's an evolutionary imperative why we don't give a crap about anybody else. If we loved all people indiscriminately, we couldn't function.Loving the one next to you more then the rest is only natural. And still...i fear love.
Is there even a medicine for that? No...it can't be.Cause love is like a drug,once you've tasted it,you become dependent and you can't just give up on it. All i like is when the other loves you back. To love and to be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. It feels damn good,and this feeling makes me warm and safe. At least my imagination thinks like that.Maybe that's not even real,but there's a lot to be said for self-disillusionment when it comes to matters of the heart.
Love is everything it's cracked up to be…It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for.I want to do that. To love without asking myself any other stupid questions like "Should i love?","What is love actually?" and so on...
Maybe love is just a disease,but there is no remedy for love but to love more. Love is the triumph of imagination over intelligence,and i try to do that. Go with the flow,which is perfect. We can only learn to love by loving that's the perfect medicine...